You ♥️

And I was just looking for wrong thing in the wrong time
I’ll tell you the truth no lies
I thought I craved you
Your voice
Your skin
Your touch
Your talks
But tonight I felt it was all the way wrong
I was seeing our pictures
The videos we made in last year
All the memories happy and sad
Flashed back in my heart
I cried, missing you
Like I’m loosing you, but I was wrong
I know you love me but it’s hard to show
Then I saw our videos
When I teased you to look at the camera
And you just shun me by taking it off
The real smile your lips curve at
The happy lines on your face
The brightness of the crinkling eyes
And that moustache spread on that smile
That laughter when your breath comes shallow
When we just run away to steal your picture
That innocent look in your mature face
That I discovered
That child who needs rest
And a little less burden from the shoulders
Yes! I discovered that child in you those times
You were giddy you were happy
I was wrong
I don’t miss you
Coz, your are always in here
In my mind, in my heart
I don’t miss you
Because people are missed when they are gone
And you’ll remain in me always
Let it be the first and last mark on my knee of your nail
I finally found what I was craving these restless nights and days
Guess what it was ‘you’
The other part
The happy, the innocent and free one
I miss him
Though I can’t say to shake it off
You have responsibilities to do
And I totally support you.
You have to take care
Of the person, who made you walk first
Who’s life deed was to build you strong
And now he needs you
And I believe father will be as strong
As he was when you took your first steps
But not now, he needs rest
You know it all, already, nothing new
But things I forgot
I have reminded myself too
We have had beautiful beautiful times
Locked memories in these videos
And in these dark moments too
I am always closer to you
When I saw the then n now
Pic you send
The dark under eye, the sad look
On your face made me die
I’ll try
Try to make you strong
I don’t know how, I don’t know if I can
Possibly ruin it all
But what I think is what I write
I am desperately waiting for a happy fall
When everything gets settled and fit
Uncle gets cured and you’ll be tranquil
I’ll be waiting till that time
Staying all the way through it
With you
To bring back my
Happy you♥️

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Fly

Moving away from home
From all the protection and love
From mother’s sweet arms
From father’s secure shadow over
You moved to a place unknown
Just with a moto to grow
You adjusted, you started to live new
New friends new environment
But lately it dawned on
That you are not good enough
Not good enough to be pride in eyes
Of the caring parents you have
Not good enough to make your own future
Considering yourself depressed
About the failures you are facing
That you can’t do the things coming
That you can’t overcome that guilty feelings
Of wasted times you had to study
Tired of the tough competition
Yes.. All things.. I know
Coz I have been through the same
Considering myself useless
To the point that I didn’t needed anyone anymore
Tried to keep myself isolated
From everyone
But listen me.. Hear me my friend
It had not been the same every day after
After
It changes.. Time changes
Its just a phase
Just a phase.. A difficult one but it is
It shall pass.. You’ll go on
And I assure you
You will be happy and confident again
You will get the satisfaction that you want
Just a little time for yourself is what you need
Just think of people who care about you
Just consider how lucky you are to have them
Never give up!
Try! Try till you can
Ups and downs make this life
I know it’s steep downhill right now
But there will be a clear plateau visible after a time
You should think positive
Try to be happy with what you get
Because deep inside we all know
What we get is what we reap..
So do not loose hope
You will fight it over
You will come out in flying colours
You’ll fly high
Again
Fly

-Poojan

Foolish

I’m a foolish girl I know
But still want to express
Because it’s better late than never
What I shouldn’t do
I’m writing a verse
To appraise you
To show how much I
…………
You entered my life
Brought thousands of lights
Some lights were dark
Bleak truth was hard
But some lights were power
Beauty with persona
Making me bright and higher
These lights from your eyes
Emit when you blink I see
The lights of your smell
I could feel every week
The static that my heart encounters
Whenever you’re near
I know I shouldn’t
But I do……
Every time you smile
Sets butterflies to my stomach
Every time you share
Makes me understand you more
Every time you ignore
Breaks me down to knee
Every single word you say
Has its own
worth for me
The way you walk
The way you talk
The way you just signal me for something
Is that different?
Because I can’t ignore
But observe your every feel
I don’t think I should get deeper
But I’m already a hundred miles underneath
I can’t just resurface
And I don’t think I want to either
I loved the crooked ways earlier
I love any way that we are together
I understand your every misery
You do things to make me happy
I know, I know but sometimes I can’t
Control these fleeting feelings
I shouldn’t
I shouldn’t feel this way
We know what happened in these winter breaks
But I feel, I feel always
ALWAYS, a magical word as is
Will remain in heart as love
For you
This is first time I’m writing for someone
This valentine
Be my half valentine
Know.. Its not possible.
Never
But I have the freedom to dream!
I think of you in ways you will never know
When your eyelashes batter
Or you roll your sleeves up of sweater
Tapping all the way to release your anxiety
Setting your hair in a style
I am not a good observer
As you are definitely
But when I observe
The littlest things appears alive
Like you shift your seat
Sets an electric waves to signal me to change
Like I’m a satellite
To your sun
But I know I shouldn’t think this way
But damn!
I don’t care
And seriously don’t want to give a fuck
Because for what and whom I feel
I do care
I’ll love you
When you’ll not
Like the stars still shines bright
In the broad daylight
Just not observe enough to see
In the blazing sunlight
I’m a star hidden in your side
Discover me
I know you already have
But you don’t know this star’s strength inside
You’ve only seen the outer bright
There are many actions
And words
Full of love
That I could write endlessly
Like how pretty the colour of your skin is
How every time I notice your soft lips
Like how your finger nails are under your skin
Smooth and shining like small diamond within
Like how your voice sounds when you’re asleep
Groggy
How you say my name
Sets me freak
You would have noticed
If not
That I rarely say your name aloud
Because it’s easier to think even
But to say
Your name only sets a fire
How could I ignore this
These all things I see
Like how your leg touches mine
How your soft hands glides
Like my skin has turned in ice
Oh! There thousands of reasons
And things that I can write
But have to give it a stop
Because I shouldn’t right?
But I remember the moments
Crystal clear imprinted in my mind
I remember how your beard felt
When I kissed you on your ear
What I felt is rooted in my heart
When your lips were just close
And you crossed that distance and broke
All the shy walls I had earlier
How I single handedly hugged you and ran
Too shy I was and am
Looking in your eyes Could make me blush
This is the power you had
I never wanted this to end
Look, I had no problem
As I said earlier
You say it would be hard but
Be my half valentine
I don’t care myself
I am big enough to handle myself
But I’m afraid
That you don’t want it to be this way
Because I know you are serious guy
And this is a wrong way
You are a wave trying to reach both bays
You chose to be loyal
And I respect
You have your choices
I have made mine
Its your time
Whether you want or not
I’ll think of you always
Even though your not mine
Thank you for letting me know myself
Thank you for the love you showed me in your different ways
I know you don’t have ideas to express much
But trust me on this
I have always meant what you said by heart
I really believe you with your every single word
Yah.. Sometimes tides arrive.. Don’t they?
Something get shattered
but it’s repairable always
Tides come and go
For what we should focus
Is our goal
My goal is clear the more I think
Please don’t take me wrong
But it’s not that I’m getting addicted to you
Because you’re the sun now
That sets the morning
Which ends the day
I’m not addicted to you
You are simply a part of me in this way
Which I cannot dare separate
These lines may seem difficult for you
Because I know.. Yes.. I know
You try hard too
You are exhausted up with both ends
I just want to see you happy
Do what you want
I never expect of you to do the same
Its just me and my feelings written
Never let it bring a resentment in your face
Never let yourself fade away
My greatest friend, my love.. (I shouldn’t.. But I never got a chance to say)!
Be happy
Always
That’s what I want for you
That’s all I pray
Don’t fray away in your wild other thoughts
Don’t think things you don’t want
But make sure you remember
That I’m counting on you in my future
At least as my greatest friend if not half
Valentine
Sorry its been a long poem
But I can write still more
My pen will bleed but my feelings not o’er
What to do when I’m bored
I have never really expressed myself
I wanted, but I lost my time back
May be I shouldn’t now but already had said
Because it’s better late than never
This is a verse which will never fade
Coz it’s written in my poetic way
Always.. When I’m not near and you want my presence
You could read it and feel it inside
Its never gonna die coz
Immortal are my words that I feel
Uh oh I’m a foolish girl
What I can say
Be happy
ALWAYS!

-Poojan

A little apology

Hi my friends and people out there following me through this blog..

Here is an apology for you all… I know.. I have not been active these days mostly… Speaking the truth.. I haven’t read any posts from anyone of you… And so don’t expect you all to read mine… Because all we do is what we get.. I’m sorry that I have not being writing regularly nowadays… But I can see.. People are following me even though I’m not writing.. Thank you everyone.. For your considerate comments and criticism I got till now.. I’m thinking to close this blog… May be.. I’m not sure.. I am not able to keep up with everything I have.. Something has to be left to start something new.. Thank you.. And I hope to hear from you all..

Goodbyes for now 🙂🖐️

Break


It becomes unnaturally cold

My body shivers relentlessly 

But there’s no cold outside 

Instead it’s inside me

When my eyes lack water

Irritating 

And my throat chokes 

Not able to breathe 

It makes me colossal of demise

But sometimes it’s good to break 

I guess 

It gives you to understand the Y’s

And gives you a new seed to grow 

Clearly.

Breaking, still appreciating 

The pain of break.